damn it

I've been meaning to start this again, but every week I just fall asleep or can't think of a decent topic. I still can't really think of a decent topic.

Regardless, I'm forcing myself to post. I've spent nearly all of my money from the short mission to Mozambique remodeling my basement into almost like my own apartment under the house. It looks amazing. Only halfway finished though. My living room is ready but I got stuck at my room and too much has been going on to continue.

School has sprung in full speed on me, and I find myself already studying for exams. Where did this come from I'm so overworked.

I'm trying to not put any personal things in this such as things about friends or relationships, but my heart grows rather confused about this opportunity that will always be just impossible but I'll always want to achieve. This is the closest success has come in some time, yet there still seems no way to attain what I'd do anything for. I won't get into detail because I don't know what to say without unleashing information I'd rather not share.

Until I have something smarter to say, I'll post again next week.