Goals so far

Well, since the semester started, my keeping track of goals has quickly faded.

The waking up early part I'm no longer bothering to keep track of, because I need to wake up at 6 nearly every day now regardless. Likewise I haven't drank with the exceptions of with the Marines and one... event. I've yet to learn to cook as the kitchen is being remodeled and for the past month and a half there has been no kitchen to cook with. I'm enjoying the video editing and my friend and I have another youtube project in the works, which hopefully will go well. The blogs I will hopefully do more. I'm giving myself a goal of one per week, either on a wednesday or a sunday.

Things have just generally been busy. I'm actually doing good in school so far because I'm putting all my focus into it. The weather has been a pain all month. I was pleased that it rained the other day and melted a lot of the snow that's been on the ground for weeks. I actually was beginning to forget what the grass even looked like.

This may be one of my most unfortunate birthdays. Not that I celebrate my birthday for the most part, as my celebrations usually don't go well. But this specific birthday I'll be on military duty all weekend. The birthday is saturday and I'll be 3 hours away from friends from friday until sunday. Lucky me. Oh well, 23 isn't special anyway.

Although I wanted to work on my self development without focusing on my lack of lovelife, in hope that when I'm bettering myself and happy (which for the most part I have been) that my lovelife will spark up by itself. However, I still get these spurts of loneliness, and still strongly desire that feeling again. An improvement is that I'm actually making some attempts (not all but some). Nothing's successful of course. Too many of the women that appear and disappear from my life already have their significant other. It's a shame when I'm a better guy and the girl sounds miserable due to situations, yet still chooses him and gets offended when I'm honest enough to say the guy is worthless. I can't help if I'm honest. There just comes points where I'm not going to beat around the bush on something like that. A last ditch effort maybe? I don't know but even making attempts things are still hopeless. I've also noticed the girls I find attractive aren't my type when it comes to personality, too much of a partier, stoner, liar, shady, why must all the pretty girls have those traits? Oh well. Maybe I need to try for a girl with parental issues and suicidal tendencies. Seems if I won one of those over they'd at least be clingy with me.