To the point of expectation

Let us add another chapter to the fails which act as building blocks to my life.

As mentioned previously, friday was the day to see a girl. We'll simply refer to her as Girl. The situation was, Friend knows Dude who works with Girl. Friend tells Dude I think Girl is attractive. Dude tells Girl and Girl instantly wants to hang out with us next time we're around. So it seems that Girl was legitimately interested in me. I'll be honest that isn't exactly a frequent situation.

Anywho friday was the day she was going to be coming with Dude. 2 hours late, Friend texts to see what's going on, and apparently Dude's sister who was also being brought along for a tattoo was not available until a certain time. When asked about Girl, he responded, and without me even knowing what was said yet, he burst into laughter and I knew it would be bad news. Apparently, Dude's girfriend... or... ex? was moving to North Carolina in a few days and Girl was moving with her. Very spur of the moment, and I never heard the reasoning and whatnot, but either way Girl wasn't hanging out that day due to packing, and obviously nothing was going to keep going between us considering she'll be moving. Go figure.

This hit me incredibly harder than other failures. I guess because of the girl obviously being into me instead of "well maybe I've got a chance with her" and also because it got extremely hyped for success even compared to my usual over thinking a girl. The realization that the failures aren't met with "damn" but with laughing, shows just how much of a joke life becomes. I don't really know what I could possibly say about the situation and life. Don't get me wrong there is a great amount of things in my head right now, but I just can't put them into words. All I can say is theres not much optimism in these thoughts.

It's just me. If it were any other person, this level of failure would never happen. It's the kind of life where this kind of thing has become the expected. Steve mentioned the Dude's sister, as she's a very attractive girl, and I just feel like no you shouldn't say anything, because if you get the message across to her, something horrible will happen like she'll die or something. That's just the way my luck goes if I have even remote interest, it is destiny to completely fall to peices some way, some how.

On top of that, it sounds to me like Best Friend is going to be moving to Virginia himself rather abruptly. Not as abrupt as girl, but as in we're all going there in a little over a week, and then next month it will most likely be happening. He says it's up in the air, but I'm sure he'll be gone. Then he acts like he'll still see me a bunch, but I know that it's not going to be perfect like he thinks. Either his plans will fall apart, or they'll be well but I just won't see him often. Either way the future is looking quite grim.